Tuesday, August 23, 2016

Blessings In Myelofibrosis

Happy Leukemic Process Day!

Three years ago today, on another beautiful afternoon like this one, I was stunned when a doctor called and said he wanted me to go to the hospital right away. 

I had gone to my primary care doctor that morning because of a lump on my left side that turned out to be a very large spleen.  He had said, “You are so healthy that I’m sure it must be a benign process.”  But in that afternoon phone call he said, “Your white blood cell count is over 40,000 and we can tell that it is a leukemic process.”

That was the beginning of my myelofibrosis journey – bone marrow biopsies, CT scans, ultrasound scans, needle sticks, complete blood counts, HLA matching, genomic testing, mutation panels and pathology reports.  There have been various prognoses of how long I might live with myelofibrosis.  I have struggled with various symptoms and I have responded well to an expensive med that relieves those symptoms.  Three years into it, I am in a good place.  I feel well, I am able to work full time, I am active and still learning new things.

I have been blessed – not in spite of myelofibrosis – but through myelofibrosis.  I’ve met many people I would never have known except for myelofibrosis.  Many of my new friends have helped me through rough times and some have let me help them through rough times.

Above all, having this fatal disease has helped me to appreciate life more than I ever did before.  I have learned to savor the present and to not let an unknown future spoil even a moment.  Myelofibrosis has been a finishing school for my maturation process and I praise God for it.


“Count it all joy, my brothers, when you meet trials of various kinds, for you know that the testing of your faith produces steadfastness. And let steadfastness have its full effect, that you may be complete and whole, lacking nothing.”  (James 1:2-4)

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